She made it......

home by the weekend! I know she's happy to finally be back in her own bed. She will start going to physical therapy on Monday so I'm sure that will be a total different ball game. Thank you everyone for your prayers!

The BIG TB test.....

for out homestudy update. Oh how fun it was!! Yeah right! Chad was out of town so I decided that I would be a big girl and go all by myself. WRONG!! I broke all of my rules for how to 'handle' being stuck with a needle. You see there's a process I have to go through to prepare myself. First I have to eat breakfast, then I have to lay down, and lastly NO MATTER WHAT I don't look at the injection site! I broke EVERY last blasted rule I've always followed since I discovered I have the vaso-vagal response (fainting due to sudden loss of blood pressure). Some people will never know what this response is like but after an episode you feel completely horrible for the rest of the day. It took me an hour to recover before I felt comfortable enough to drive away! Let's just say that I've learned my lession and I will NEVER try to be a big girl again when it comes to needles!!

Please pray for my mom!

She had a partial knee replacement surgery today. The doctor said she done well and the hard part will be recovery. She will be in the hospital for two or three days before she can be released to go home. She wants to be out of there by the weekend because she swears you don't get as good of care over the weekend. Please pray that she does well and gets home soon!

Frustrated.......

with the process! I completely understand that everyone has to be paid at the end of the day but I feel like every corner we turn there's someone there with their hand out. We got word today that our homestudy has to now be updated. We will have the update fee with the social worker, a doctor visit fee for a physical, more lab work fees, fingerprint fees, and on and on. I realize in the end when we are holding our precious little guy it will be way worth it but today I'm just soo overwhelmed! All of this because he's due just 10 days past it's expiration. URGH!

Cautiously but anxiously waiting....

for December. Our birthmom, Jen, will be going to doctor's appointments bi-weekly from now on out since she's now in her third trimester. Last night I was in the nursery just looking through baby clothes and so forth to see what we had that could be used for him. I started packing up all of the girl clothes that would not be appopriate for him. We aren't going to do anything with them until we have received placement and the revocation period is up. It was a little sad to see the twin outfits that had been purchased especially for 'the twins'. It will just have to be a work in progress since we refuse to redecorate until we are 100% sure he will become part of our family. We aren't saying we won't take down the pink but we will keep it and not put back until after we are home. We feel like this is the best decision!

Ultrasound results..............

are BLUE!! Looks like he will be pretty in pink since that's all we have! LOL! Chad would pitch one more fit if I even went near him with a spec of pink. We think it will be nice to have a fresh start and get rid of those things that have such bad memories attached. We may start little by litlle trying to get rid of the major things and wait to repurchase until we are home with the lil man. We'll see! I'm just not to comfortable with the thought of going ahead and preparing again. It's hard to not get excited but I also believe it's good to try and guard our hearts to some degree. Come on December!

Spent Saturday........

at St. Simons fishing. We had an exciting time considering we actually caught something. We drove over for the day with another couple and fished the flats. We caught two fish (not sure what kind), a blue crab, an eel, and three sting rays. You would have thought that we were under attack by something unknown to man the way us girls reacted!

Are you ready for this? We are.......

REMATCHED!! YAY! We can't help but be excited. I received a call today at 1:20 on my cell letting us know that a birthmom has chosen us to parent her baby. She is due on December 16th. I always said I'd like a Christmas baby! Please pray that things will go smoothly for us this time and that we won't have to experience another heartache. We don't know if the baby will be a girl or boy but we should find out next week. She has a scheduled doctor's appointment for an ultrasound to determine the sex. We have also requested to see verification of the pregnancy and her medical records. They told us that it shouldn't be a problem. The coordinator has met with her and performed a pregnancy test that turned positive. Please, please, please let this be real!!

Looks like we are stuck........

working with the same agency. We got the response that no fees were going to be refunded but that they would uphold their orginal contract and rematch us with those fees we've already paid. We could file suet against them but it would drag things on for months with no end in sight. We need to move on from this and not risk losing anymore money. Trust is going to be an issue and things will just have to be done differently. Hopefully things will progress fast and we can have our family so that we can move forward with our lives. It seems this entire process has overcome us and become who we are. That is not what we wanted to happen!

As for Renay we are doing our part to try and make sure no one else is scarred by her. We sent in our statement along with a copy of the evidence we have. They are thinking that maybe they can file federal charges against her!

I Would Die For That

I ran across this video and thought it was amazing! I know that some people who frequent my blog can totally relate with this song as I can. Unfortunately this is a part of our life that we will always remember. I believe in a sense that infertility changes who we are and how we relate to certain things. I will never know what it's like to carry a biological child but hopefully by the grace of God we will know what it's like to be Mom and Dad. She done a great job of touching every avenue. I remember those days to well! Hope you enjoy!