Bitter Sweet.....

is the way I think of things! It seems after the tests that her cancer has also spread to her other eye and to her brain stem. Her left eye doesn't appear to be as progressed as her right so the doctors are hoping that they will be able to maintain her vision in at least that eye. The name of the cancer from my understanding is Myeloma. It seems to be a very rare cancer that normally occurs in older individuals. It saddens me to know that it's not a curable cancer and is only treatable to prolong her life. She was having a hard time with things but has now chose to spend the rest of her time with her children instead of being depressed and crying. I'm sure she has her days when it's harder than others but to a degree I believe she's trying to find peace with her prognosis.

Her doctors have decided to perform a c-section on Friday, July 27th, to deliver the babies. She sent word that I'd better be there in the delivery room with her. Are you kidding? I wouldn't miss it for the world! We have made the decision to leave on Tuesday and spend the night maybe half way and drive the rest on Wednesday morning. That would give us Wednesday afternoon and Thursday to spend with Renay. We would like to do something with her and maybe go out to dinner. We were also thinking we'd take lots of pictures and maybe some video clips for the girls to have later in life. Most likely they will NEVER have the chance to meet or even speak with their biological mother. I believe this is one of the harder things for me. I really wanted for them to have the choice when they're grown to find their Mom. I have asked that we be kept informed about Renay after placement. They have assured me that we will be. We are extremely excited to welcome them into our lives and home but also extremely sad for Renay and her other children!! As I said it's just BITTER SWEET!